Being an absentee father is hard. Not as hard as being an actual father probably but it comes with its own hardships if you wish you didn't have to be an absentee father. It will never feel as good as being a "real" dad, I know that. I know that and I'll still never stop trying to be the best father I can- within the boundaries that Maggie will let me because obviously she had a say in all that. She's her own person and can make decisions about that and some of those decisions keep me at arms length and that hurts, even if I understand why and agree that in ways it's probably best.
But there are times when all the effort pays off. Times like when she lights up at my compliment and my heart soars and hurts all at once in the way that only love can do. The sort of love that is bigger than anything you can even comprehend but leaves you so vulnerable. Completely worth it though.
"It's very cool looking. Getting one with a hood is a really good idea. Good enough that I kind of want to steal the idea," I said, tossing the keys at her with a weird sense of pride. She's a smart girl and I knew that most of that had to do with her mother and the Carpenters but I'm still proud. "Also, try to not get a ticket otherwise the Winter Court will make it disappear and I hate letting them have anything like that over my head."
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Date: 2018-01-17 08:22 pm (UTC)But there are times when all the effort pays off. Times like when she lights up at my compliment and my heart soars and hurts all at once in the way that only love can do. The sort of love that is bigger than anything you can even comprehend but leaves you so vulnerable. Completely worth it though.
"It's very cool looking. Getting one with a hood is a really good idea. Good enough that I kind of want to steal the idea," I said, tossing the keys at her with a weird sense of pride. She's a smart girl and I knew that most of that had to do with her mother and the Carpenters but I'm still proud. "Also, try to not get a ticket otherwise the Winter Court will make it disappear and I hate letting them have anything like that over my head."